Lights

Sounds and lights blink on and off
On Off On Off
They're here but they're not
First there and then gone
While a light shines
It exists in its fullness
Once it escapes
It's as though it never was there
But a memory left
Remembered by shadows
Breeds hope of a light
That will come and will stay.

But the light is divided
It's needed elsewhere
Light desires to stay
And improve the dark air
But another room calls
Just as dark as the fist
And the light can't decide
Which is better or worse
So she flickers and dims
And blinks back and forth
On Off On Off

The reason to stay is the need and the growth
To go is the future and family both
The children here need her youth and her life
But what of her hope to be mother and wife?
It seems that's on hold
For as long as she stays
While she's here, all of life
Is just classes and plays
But of course her own drama
Is still going on
And ties her to home
Strings will never be gone.

So how long to stay
When I don't know God's plans?
In three months, what to say?
Am I trusting God's hands?