I saw a souped-up, tricked-out Mini Cooper today, all bells and whistles. Oddly, it was the first Mini Cooper I’ve seen here in South Korea.
There was a freshness to the air tonight, walking home from school at twilight. With twilight coming earlier and earlier, it is a nice, homey thing to walk home in the gathering dusk at 5:30pm, thinking of dinner in my apartment and a quiet evening. I think it must have been cleaning day in Daejeon because everything seemed picked up and organized. The street corners were passable, the kagaes were swept and stacked, the recycling bin areas were straightened and spiffied up. All in all, it felt like a new beginning to the week. And yet, even with all the freshness – in the air, in the cleanliness – there was a sense of familiarity, as if this cool air had been here last autumn, had gone around the world and now was back, carrying with it all the scents and memories and happiness of fall leaves and family dinners around the world. It was a well-worn and comfortable air.
Certainly a relief from the usual general odor of Korea!
I walked to school this morning with a sense of dread, knowing that I am overwhelmed and not knowing what to do about it. But I always seem to shrug that feeling off by the time I walk home. It’s certainly not conscious because I still know that I am in over my head! But coming home, wherever home is, has always been a relieving thought. Will it continue to be this way, all my life?
But I'm tired, oh so tired. Can I keep living this way after all?
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Hey Lynz,
Sometimes I have a hard time with the enemy psalms. Because I don't have evil men pursuing me and trying to bring me down. But we do have an enemy that is out to get us in any way he can. So, read this psalm with that enemy in mind:
Psalm 25
Of David.
1To you, O LORD, I lift up my soul;
2 in you I trust, O my God.
Do not let me be put to shame,nor let my enemies triumph over me.
3 No one whose hope is in you
will ever be put to shame,but they will be put to shame who are treacherous without excuse.
4 Show me your ways, O LORD,teach me your paths;
5 guide me in your truth and teach me,for you are God my Savior,and my hope is in you all day long.
6 Remember, O LORD, your great mercy and love,for they are from of old.
7 Remember not the sins of my youth
and my rebellious ways;according to your love remember me,for you are good, O LORD.
8 Good and upright is the LORD;
therefore he instructs sinners in his ways.
9 He guides the humble in what is right and teaches them his way.
10 All the ways of the LORD are loving and faithful for those who keep the demands of his covenant.
11 For the sake of your name, O LORD,forgive my iniquity, though it is great.
12 Who, then, is the man that fears the LORD? He will instruct him in the way chosen for him.
13 He will spend his days in prosperity,and his descendants will inherit the land.
14 The LORD confides in those who fear him; he makes his covenant known to them.
15 My eyes are ever on the LORD,
for only he will release my feet from the snare.
16 Turn to me and be gracious to me, for I am lonely and afflicted.
17 The troubles of my heart have multiplied; free me from my anguish.
18 Look upon my affliction and my distress and take away all my sins.
19 See how my enemies have increased and how fiercely they hate me!
20 Guard my life and rescue me;
let me not be put to shame, for I take refuge in you.
21 May integrity and uprightness protect me, because my hope is in you.
22 Redeem Israel, O God,from all their troubles.
Love you!
I love you.
Psalm 63.
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